First article! | 19th birthday | to my future self

Video Version(Turkish):

Hi Ece,

  You were 18 years old as your past version last year today. I know you had expected magical things from your 18 like everyone. You had waited for something beautiful happen but maybe it was the worst year of your life until now but, do not talk that dramatically. At least you are alive right now. Over and above you gained experiences even if they are bad. You learned a lot about life. You did a lot of things the first time. An ambulance ride, surgery, getting away from school, from volleyball for a long time and maybe never turn back... I do not know if you turn back to volleyball but I hope you have the right to choose whether you turn back or not when the time comes and I hope you will make the best decision for yourself. I said I do not know but what I know is you overcame a lot of things this year and stood firm. You beat your biggest fear, got surgery. Most importantly, you did not go crazy while facing surgery :) 

   That was the year that you faced worst experiences but at the same time that was the year that you learned the most about life and grow up. Now you are stronger against the challenges of life. Now you are not taking seriously about the things that you care much before. You learned to care about yourself at least a bit. Thank you so much for all. 

  While I am writing these you are celebrating your 19th birthday today. Last year you made a change and wished for nothing. You thought they wouldn't happen anyway. But you learned that when you are out of hope, disasters are coming. Therefore I hope you wish something this year :) Because when something did not happen, there is always a reason. Imagine, wish, try and continue. Let life gives you the best always.You took a break this year. Your 18 went while you are at home and waiting for the heal. You were trying to learn about walking, running and the other basic thing that the others doing simply during the day. Right now you are still struggling about jumping for instance. Therefore I do not have much to remind you about this year. 

  I hope you will have the best things to share next year and share with the next you. I hope you will make my wishes actualize next year. I hope you will improve the youtube job that I started this year aiming to help people that share the same issues with me. To show them they are not alone. To show them they can find the benefits always even if they are bad things. I said you because after this video and letter I do not exist anymore :) I know it's weird but you are the new version of me.

 So, As I am done about sharing, this is the time I will transfer the throne to you :) I want to thank you so much the people that be with me this hard period of my life. I would never make it without your help. My family, friends all of them. Take care of yourself and them well. Be the best version of me. See you next year :))

bye xx  

- 18th Ece Toran